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Enter
Here “For Lynnie in the Dark”
In May of 2017 KYSO Flash Press
published Enter Here by Alexis Rhone Fancher http://www.alexisrhonefancher.com with
cover design by Clare MacQueen https://www.facebook.com/clare.macqueen in
collaboration with Alexis Rhone Fancher https://www.facebook.com/alexis.fancher.
In this scripted interview Fancher talks
about her experience of writing the poem “For Lynnie in the Dark” which is one
of the many elegy poems in her poetry collection Enter Here.
1.
Can
you go into great detail about the writing of “For Lynnie in the Dark” from the
moment the idea was first conceived in your brain until final form on the page? –
This poem went through over 20 edits/rewrites
and 8 drafts before I was satisfied. I worked from notes written as early as
2007, and up to 2016. It was complicated. I wanted to get it right, and there
was such a huge saga, surrounding Lynn’s death. I waited a long time, even to
begin crafting the poem. Then there were the ongoing decisions as to what to
include and what could be left out. Every time I tried to delve deeply into my
feelings about Lynn’s life and death, I fell apart. Above Left: Alexis Rhone Fancher at a poetry reading for Enter Here on September 10, 2017. Photo attributed to Lisa Segal.
2.
Where
were you when you learned that Lynn Cutolo had been murdered?
I’d gone to lunch with a friend. When I
returned, there was an urgent email on my computer, from Marilyn, Lynn’s best
friend since elementary school. The subject line said: “Call Me Now! Something
Terrible Has Happened To Lynnie.” My mind went crazy. I imagined a horrible car
crash, an armed robbery at a gas station, a freak accident on a plane. Never in
a million years did I imagine she had been murdered. It was unthinkable. Above Right: Home in Daper, Utah where Lynn Cutolo was murdered.
3.
Did
you know Lynn personally? If so can you
describe your friendship with her?
Lynn was a close friend. When we met in the
mid-80’s, we bonded instantly. Lynn was lively, smart, successful and
accomplished. Beautiful. Stylish. Great fun. Adventurous. She had a rapier wit
and was funny as hell. She held regular lunches for her many girlfriends at her
beautifully-furnished condo in Playa Del Rey. She called these get togethers
“Ladies Who Lunch,” and we all dressed up and wore outrageous hats. Lynn made
her signature martinis, lasagna and yummy desserts. All diets were off. Good
times. Above Left: The Beach at Playa del Rey, California. Attributed to Mike Izzy. Public Domain.
4.
“For Lynnie in the Dark” is written in sixteen,
3-line stanzas, and one, stand alone line at the end. It didn’t start off that
way, but resolved itself into that form. It made the most sense to me that way.
5.
Where
were you when you wrote the poem? Can
you describe the environment you inhabited when you wrote the poem?
I wrote “For Lynnie in the Dark” where I write
all my poems, at my computer in my studio. (Left) I save each draft, and am able to
compare them as I edit/rewrite. I began working seriously on this poem in early
2015 and finished the final draft in August of 2016.
6.
I
am a bit confused – I remember when Ted Bundy was executed that Friday in
January of 1989 in Florida. (I stayed up all night that Thursday well into
Friday watching the news reports.) And that Daniel murdered his wife Lynn in
Draper, Utah in 2007. I took it that in
your eighth stanza the last line “He Heard Ted Bundy was imprisoned nearby”
suggests Ted Bundy was living when they moved to Utah?
7.
Enter
Here
has been described as literary erotic book but I liked to describe it as
psychological poetry. I especially
thought the elegies to individuals both living and dead were compelling. How would you describe Enter Here? How would you like your readers to describe Enter
Here?
The words “honest, fearless, and sensual” come
to mind. I would like my readers to describe Enter Here as a book
that gives them permission to speak their own truth, and to be fierce. Above
all, I want people to be empowered by my poems, and to own their lives. Above Left: Alexis Rhone Rancher at a poetry reading.
8.
Can
you share with me some factual/ backstory about the poem?
Nobody had all the pieces. We put it all
together at the memorial. Lynn had visited me in LA a month before she died. We
had a lovely time together, hanging out on the beach, catching up. Since Lynn
and Dan had moved to Draper, our time together was far less frequent. We made
the most of those days, just fun at first, but on that last day before she went
back home, Lynn’s mood turned dark. She shared that her marriage had taken a downward
turn that Dan had lost his job and had severely damaged his back, resulting in
opioid addiction. “He just lays on the couch all day, watching TV and
complaining,” Lynn confided. She said she still loved Dan, but was no longer in
love with him. That marrying him had been a terrible mistake. She said he’d
been verbally abusive but had never physically touched her. She swore to it.
Lynn shared that she was putting money into a separate account, saving up enough money to leave Dan. She was going to ask for a divorce. I asked her again if he was physically abusing her. She vehemently denied it. If Lynn had told us the truth, we would never have let her leave LA and fly back to Utah. Her friends would have kept her safe from him, if any one of us had had all the pieces.
At the memorial, the “Ladies Who Lunch”
compared notes. Lynn had shared different parts of the story with each of us. No
one knew everything. I knew about the bank account and the verbal abuse.
Another friend witnessed the physical abuse, said Dan had pushed Lynn down a
flight of stairs. Someone else told us about the threats. Another one knew
about the financial devastation Dan was wreaking. Once we put it all together,
everything was crystal clear. A pathway to brutal murder. Above Right - Image attributed to Alexis Rhone Fancher
9.
Anything
you would like to add?
I wrote “For Lynnie in the Dark” to honor Lynn.
She was a shining star, gone far too soon. I miss her. I took this photo of Lynn Cutolo on Sept. 1st,
2007. She died a little over a month later.
For Lynnie in the Dark
She married him in
Vegas.
She’d already paid
for the chapel.
She did it to
please her dying mom.
She fingered his
photo in her pocket.
He gave her his
adored mom’s ruby ring.
She didn’t know
what synthetic meant.
She walked down the
aisle in a panic.
He didn’t tell her
he’d always been an orphan.
She had forgotten
her bouquet.
He liked aimless
drives in the desert.
He liked how she
mated his socks.
He kissed her
senseless.
Their bedroom was
an illusion.
He stepped into his
pants like a fireman.
He was in cahoots
with the Lord.
She had an Italian
complexion.
She’d recenlty lost
her keys.
He had exceptional
footwork.
She sold her condo near
the beach.
She sold her Santa
Fe-style furniture.
He allowed her to
take both cats.
He paid for
everything on her Visa.
He moved her to a
small town in Utah.
He heard Ted Bundy
was imprisoned nearby.
She got knee-deep
into religion .
She got her real
estate license.
He got a pink slip
on Friday.
He blamed it on her and the meds.
He dreamed of red
meat and hawks, circling.
She made more money
than God.
She danced ino his
head like a migraine.
He had his second
stepfather’s temper.
She called Dial-A-Prayer,
then hung up.
He followed the tele-novellas.
He was headed for a
cliff when the car stalled.
She put Revlon
concealer on her bruises.
He fell off the
couch.
She was in L.A.
when it hit her.
She opened a secret
bank account and drove back to Utah.
He shot her the first
time in the leg.
She didn’t move.
He watched her not
moving.
She remembered she
forgot to feed the cats.
She curled up.
She squeezed her
eyes shut.
He squeezed the
trigger.
He squeezed it
again.
She knew her
dancing days were done.
He shot himself in
the head.
--for
Lynn Cutolo, murdered on October 3, 2007.
RIP
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