Sunday, May 3, 2015

New York City Actor/Playwright Randyl Appel Writes Musical About Mother In The Holocaust . . .

Christal Cooper


Article 2,221 Words


Someone Else’s Sky
“I think my passion for creating this story has so much more to do with the idea of what are we going to do as a species, as a human race, with regard to each other and this idea of community.  If we accept persecution and holocaust and any sort of atrocity for anybody we accept it for ourselves.”
Randyl Appel on his play Someone Else’s Sky


Artist Randyl Appel, 51, is campaigning for funds to produce an actor’s equity reading in New York City on his musical Someone Else’s Sky based on his mother’s experience as a Holocaust survivor.


Someone Else’s Sky details the three years in the life of Ilse Steltzer, the daughter of Christian Emil Steltzer and Jew Else Steltzer who, who are both executed by the Nazis – Emil at Buchenwald and Else at Auschwitz. 



Christian paternal grandfather Opi (Ernst Steltzer) hides his two granddaughters six year old Ilse and her baby sister in a root cellar for two years.  


While Opi and her baby sister venture outside to get some needed medicine, the Gestapo come and take Ilse to Terezin Concentration Camp, where she remains for 15 months, in which she is subjected to torture, horror, sexual abuse, and experimental testing.


What makes Someone Else’s Sky so unique, with its own brand of humor, melody, and horror is Ilse’s incredible imagination and ability to maintain her own sanity and strong spirit by creating her own fantasy and alternative world in which she is a Princess, friends with Harriet Tubman, and, along with Biblical Moses, is able to find the Promised Land, long before the Russians come to liberate the camp.     


Appel knew of his mother’s past all of his life, she was the mother from Germany who endured terrible things.  By age 10, Appel had a better understanding of his mother and her past.


My mother said what really kept her going was the alternative life, this imagination, basically reassigning what was happening around her and to her that she could put it in context which of course was impossible to do but she did.”


       Ilse’s father Emil Steltzer was a local celebrity and accomplished athlete in soccer in Germany.  Even today there is a museum in Germany that has a display of Emil Steltzer and other local celebrities from the area. 



       “Because he was a Christian and married this
Jewish woman, there was no precedence with what was to come in the Third Reich.  For some reason they felt secure staying there while all the Jewish families fled.  And there was some speculation that he got involved in some underground work as well.”


Emil and Else Steltzer had two daughters Ilse and Mariana.  They had Mariana baptized, hoping to have their family identified as Christian instead of Jewish, which would protect them from the concentration camps, but that is not what happened.


“He married this Jewish woman (which) was the same as being Jewish, if not in the Nazi’s strange rulebook, even worse.  So my grandmother and grandfather were taken away to different concentration camps and eventually were executed.” 


His mother also told Appel about her childhood before the Third Reich, such as when her Opi took occasional trips to America and brought her back a present – a book on American History, where she first read about slavery, Harriet Tubman, and the amazing things she had done:  escaping to the north on her own, only to come back to deliver her people to the proverbial Promised Land, an expression that was first used in the story of the Biblical Moses.  To the young Ilse, it only seemed fitting that Harriet Tubman was known as the ‘Moses of her day”. 


       And certainly Ilse needed her own Moses at the time, especially when, just as the Third Reich was coming into power, her grandmother took her to Christian relative’s homes and pleaded for them to hide her. 



       “They slammed the door in her face.  And so my mother became compelled of this idea of finding a Promised Land, an idyllic place, and then as her surrounding area in Frankfurt am Main, Germany became unattainable she began to wonder how she could find the Promised Land in someone else’s story because she can’t find it in her own.  And indeed if it is in someone else’s story perhaps it is under someone else’s sky.”


Appel without being aware of it, was writing pieces of his mother’s story into the pages of his brain; but instead of writing he pursued a career in music, which he inherited from his mother.  Appel received his degree in Drama and supported himself as a full-time artist with his acting, dancing, booming voice, and choreography skills.  He obtained roles in regional theaters in California, Colorado, and New York. 



       The big change in his career came in his 30s when he felt compelled to go back to New York City where he worked what he described as a survival job – the typical 9 to 5 job – as a desk clerk at the first W Hotel in New York City, becoming their first corporate director of training. 



Now he is the owner of his own company Appel Hospitality Associates (http://appelhospitality.com) and trains hotel employees on utilizing musical theater as instructor tools. AHA used this unique approach of training the hotel staff of the first Virgin Hotel.


       Then the Bosnia Genocide hit the news, and the world, along with Appel, was horrified, and he felt compelled to write Someone Else’s Sky.


“As a son of Holocaust survivor I just thought there was a threshold that we as a human race needed to cross where we are no longer just beating each other up and saying, “My religion is better, or my culture is better, or my skin color is superior.”  It had less to do with I want to write than to say, “Hey I have something I want to say about a particular subject.  And that subject has to do with our human interaction.” And so that became the genesis for this story.”


The first thing Appel did to begin Someone Else’s Sky was the same thing his mother did when she was at her darkest moment – used his imagination.


“I imagined Harriet Tubman was running through a forest to the North escaping slavery.  And there was Moses in the desert.  There was the place outside time and space where Harriet and Moses intersect and both stopped to have a little picnic.  What would they say to each other?”



       Appel in his New York City apartment wrote the first lines of Someone Else’s Sky about a conversation between the two great historical figures.  The conversation between Harriet Tubman and Moses is no longer in the final script, but it was the first step in completing what is now Someone Else’s Sky.   


       For the next 20 years Appel worked on the script, from different apartments in New York City.  He now resides in the Upper West Side of Manhattan. 


 I attempted to find a way to tell my mother’s story as more than just a story about one child in the Holocaust.  I wanted to find a way to sort of universalize this persecution story. Asher who reads his mother’s journal in the Someone Else’s Sky says, “Oh I’m just reading this journal.  This has nothing to do with me.  This is someone else’s history.”  I was compelled and it became a life mission, a calling if you will to write it has a human story, as our story.”


Appel describes Someone Else’s Sky as 80% fiction and 20% fact; and the most important fact is that Ilse, his mother, did create this fantasy world, which most artists would describe as an incredible gift and talent, but Ilse describes to her son as simply a survival skill.
There are also many factual elements of the musical that are in the play or at least hinted in the musical which include rape and sexual abuse.


“My mother’s memory is that the people running the camp could not sustain any kind of semblance of sanity (because of)  behaving so hideously and inappropriately to other human beings.  She remembers tremendous incidences of highly in despicable behavior. And all of that was capsulated in the fictional rape of the Mariana in the second act.  “The guards were kind of enough to give me the baby.”  There was a lot of testing going on and my mother was often tested for her threshold of pain.  She had her nails pulled from her fingers.  And there were different medications and things and shots she remembers being tested on her.”


 Of the many factual elements is the ending, which seems hard to believe and larger than life.
       “The Nazis running the camp were essentially gone and those who survived were asking, “Where did everybody go?”  So the survivors did not know if they were coming back and they began to forge for food and hotwire busses and trucks.  My mother was loaded on the back of an open-air bus with the doll that in real life did exist, given to her by Opi.  Ilse drops the doll and screams which scares the driver and the driver stops.  She jumps off the bust to get this beloved doll.  Someone says, “Go!  Go!  Go!”  And they leave without her and about two football fields over  - and this is all true – the bus blows up – having gone over a landmine or a boobie-trap.  So everybody on the bus except for my mother perished.  And this was all before the Russians came in to liberate her and the remaining survivors.”


       Appel’s goal in writing Someone Else’s Sky is two fold – to write about human spirit conquering atrocity and to do it in such a way that has not been done before.  


       “There is the Diary of Anne Frank that deals with the hiding and the diary; there is the complete indescribable inexcusable human behavior in Schindler’s List.  I needed to find a way to convince the audiences to sit in this show and kind of convey the horror in a way that could be processed.”


       In the end what Appel wants to accomplish is what the Oscar winning actor Roberto Benigni accomplished in Life Is Beautiful.


       “Along comes this magnificent film where the father takes this unspeakable horror, creating a game and asking the audience to laugh.  He is so successful in doing that that we are laughing and this clown is creating this beautiful experience for his son.  


What Mr. Benigni did so magnificently was take us on this ride, and you think you are safe as an audience, safe looking at this story, safe in creating this identification, and convinced that this set up is going to be an acceptable ending.  We are taken in as an audience and everything that we think of as safe, familiar, and acceptable is turned upside down.  And yet we are not safe, and when the father is killed in Life Is Beautiful the audience is supposed to say, “How dare you!  I loved this man!”


In away I am looking to mislead the audience in this sense of saying:  Here is something beautiful through a child’s eyes and her hopes.  It’s great!  Isn’t hope wonderful! Isn’t she keeping hope alive!  And at the end you get slapped in the face anyway.”


But that slap in the face only applies to Someone Else’s Sky, because in real life Ilse’s story does not end when the bus blows up; it continues when Ilse is liberated by the Russians, and reunited with Opi and her baby sister Marianne. The three made passage to America where they settled in Newark, New Jersey, the two girls reared by their maternal Aunt Alice.




 “Alice was not a nice woman.  The first thing she said to my mother was “If you were a good little girl it would have been my sister who had been there and not you.  She was raised by this woman up to the time she married my father.”


The marriage of Joel, a retired electrical contractor, and Ilse Steltzer has been a happy one, producing three sons:  Lawrence, Randyl, and Glen. 


“My older brother is deaf and my younger brother has a learning disability and for the first 30 years of his life was an epileptic.  So my mother went from hiding in a basement, losing her parents to the Nazis, being in a concentration camp, coming to America to being adopted by her aunt and uncle and that did not go well, and then having three children – two of whom are severely disabled.  She’s had her share of drama.”


Ilse believes that organized religion separates and excludes people; and so, as a result, she reared her sons without organized religion, but at the same time, to respect all faiths.  


       “We were exposed to a tremendous amount of the Bible – both the Old and New Testament.  There is no sense that religion is negative.  I have a real love of the story of Jesus Christ and his ministry, and I particularly resonate with that but not in the sense of organize religion.  My mother just wanted us to sample the world and sample the stories; and connect with what was real for us as individuals.”




      

Song: IN A PRINCESS’S DRESS
  
Ilse:
Since my days are unkind
And I’m truly confined
To a life much too hard endure,
I awake late at night
When the sad’s out of sight
I am once again me.
To be sure!

Every night I explore
Something more than dumb war
Something I can live for that is mine.
Something fresh!
Something free!
Some more radiant me.
Out here with these stars!
Where I shine!

     Shining brighter than bright with my most sparkly grin.
     I will focus my light on new lives to drop in.   
Into histories or fables and whatever enables
A star who must truly express
Her royal descent.  Live her life as it’s meant
All ablaze in a princess’s dress

In a princess’s dress why it’s anyone’s guess as
To which fairy tale I might find
In a princess’s dress yes it’s me who confesses
That I am truly a one-of-a-kind

Not a girl who’s asleep waiting for some dumb kiss
From some hero who helps me arise
No, I’m more of a princess who cleans up my own mess
To see life through her own royal eyes.

In a princess’s dress I shall have more successes
With those villains who’d never be mean
To a princess who dresses and clearly possesses
A star shine befitting a queen

(The music swells and dance ensues.  To establish that our story moves swiftly and unapologetically in and out of this child’s imagination, some of the dance sequence allows Ilse to appear as if she were actually defying gravity. It is as though she were flying among the stars!)

            Yes!  That’s right what you see!
     That’s the accurate me!
     I am not bound to obvious things.
Not to time or to place
I am choosing my grace
And to what my imagining brings

It brings all due respect with my great intellect
And I’ll educate those who have none
But I don’t choose to wait for the ones filled with hate
And it’s them who should be on the run.

Yes, in a princess’s dress watch as beauty impresses
The willing and those with kind heart
So into whose story shall I twirl with such glory?
Tell me when can my princess-ing start?

(A bit more dance.)

Not to time or to place
I am choosing my grace.
And I’m turning my life into art
So into whose story shall I twirl with such glory?
Tell me when can my princess-ing start?

Tell me when can my princess-ing start?

Excerpt from Someone Else's Sky
Copyright granted by Randyl Appel



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Someone Else’s Sky logo
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Randyl Appel
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Ilse in Someone Else’s Sky
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Emil Stelzer marker
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Else Stelzer marker
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Ernst Steltzer
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A female concentration camp prisoner shows her wound after liberation.
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Randyl Appel as a young child
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Cropped image from The Railway attributed to painter Edovard Monet.
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Emil Steltzer featured in both photographs as part of an exhibit in Germany.
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Emil Steltzer featured in both photographs as part of an exhibit in Germany.
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Massed crowds at the Nazi party rally in Nuremberg, Germany in 1935 where and when the Nazi announced the Nuremberg Race Law.
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The Nuremberg Race Laws of 1935 deprived German Jews of their rights of citizenship, giving them the status of "subjects" in Hitler's Reich. The laws also made it forbidden for Jews to marry or have sexual relations with Aryans or to employ young Aryan women as household help. (An Aryan being a person with blond hair and blue eyes of Germanic heritage.)
The first two laws comprising the Nuremberg Race Laws were: "The Law for the Protection of German Blood and German Honor" (regarding Jewish marriage) and "The Reich Citizenship Law" (designating Jews as subjects).
Those laws were soon followed by "The Law for the Protection of the Genetic Health of the German People," which required all persons wanting to marry to submit to a medical examination, after which a "Certificate of Fitness to Marry" would be issued if they were found to be disease free. The certificate was required in order to get a marriage license.
The Nuremberg Laws had the unexpected result of causing confusion and heated debate over who was a "full Jew." The Nazis then issued instructional charts such as the one shown below to help distinguish Jews from Mischlinge (Germans of mixed race) and Aryans. The white figures represent Aryans; the black figures represent Jews; and the shaded figures represent Mischlinge.
The Nazis settled on defining a "full Jew" as a person with three Jewish grandparents. Those with less were designated as Mischlinge of two degrees: First Degree - two Jewish grandparents; Second Degree - one Jewish grandparent.
       After the Nuremberg Laws of 1935, a dozen supplemental Nazi decrees were issued that eventually outlawed the Jews completely, depriving them of their rights as human beings.

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Nuremberg Race Law Chart
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Painting of Little Girl Reading by John George Brown
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View of false wall hiding place in Corrie Ten Boom House, Haarlem, North Holland;
Closeable Hole in Cabinet through which divers crawled into hiding place during alarms.
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View of false wall hiding place in Corrie Ten Boom House, Haarlem, North Holland;
Hole in wall to reveal hiding place (right)

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Jacket cover of Aunt Harriet’s Underground Railroad In The Sky by Faith Ringgold.
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Randyl Appel, far right, portraying Barnaby Tucker in HELLO DOLLY.
“I did FOUR productions of HELLO DOLLY! In my career always playing the role of Barnaby Tucker.  I played that role so frequently that my beloved black lab was named Barnaby.” 
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W Hotel In New York
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Appel Hospitality Associates web logo
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Bosnian mass grave being evacuated by forensic scientist.
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Another logo for Someone Else’s Sky
From left to right:  Ernst Steltzer, Harriet Tubman,

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Illustration from an early children’s book
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Jacket cover of Moses:  When Harriet Tubman Led Her People to Freedom by Carol Boston Weatherford and illustrated by Kadir Nelson
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Illustration of Moses leading the Israelites out of slavery
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Another logo for Someone Else’s Sky
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Randyl Appel
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Image of a diary entry from Anne Frank
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Jewish girl and concentration camp prisoner holding her doll.
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Pictures taken of the children used in Kurt Heissmeyer's tuberculosis experiment at Neuengamme. The children of the Bullenhuser Damm show incisions where axillary lymph nodes had been surgically removed after they were deliberately infected with tuberculosis at Neuengamme concentration camp. In a "cover-up" operation, all were murdered with their 4 adult Jewish caretakers and 6 Red Army POWs in the basement of the school on 20 April 1945, as British forces approached to liberate them.

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Image of a doll given to Zofia Burowska by her parents in the 1930s which she kept with her while living in the Wolbrum and Krakow ghettos. #N00052

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DVD jacket cover of the 1959 film The Diary of Anne Frank
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DVD jacket cover of Schindler’s List
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DVD jacket cover of Life Is Beautiful
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Film clip from Life Is Beautiful
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Picture and article about Ernst Steltzer
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Newspaper photograph of Ernst Steltzer and his two granddaughters older sister Ilse Steltzer and Marianne Steltzer.
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Newspaper photo of Ernst Steltzer, Aunt Alice, and 10-year-old Ilse Steltzer.
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Newspaper photo of Ilse Steltzer (far left), Aunt Alice (second from left), Ernest Steltzer (second from right); and Marianne Steltzer, (above Ernest Steltzer)
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Wedding photograph of Joel and Ilse Steltzer.
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Appel Family Photographs
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Ilse and Joel Appel
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Joel and Ilse Appel
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Appel Family
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Friday, May 1, 2015

A Mother's Quest For Her Daughter Who Has Been Missing For Eleven Years . . .

Christal Cooper


Article 2,016 Words


A Mother Awaits With Two Hands
One Holding Balloons
The Other Candles

“There are no words in the dictionary to describe what this feels like.  At least not any words I know of.”
Pam Riley Boldin


Pamela Riley Boldin was fifteen years old when she got pregnant with her firstborn LaQuanta Nachelle Riley.
She remembers the baby kicking inside of her stomach and how the feeling was spiritual and revelation-al all at the same time.  “I realized there was a life growing inside of me.”


On February 26, 1984, at age 16, Pamela gave birth to her baby girl and when she looked at her baby girl for the first time, she thought she was the most beautiful thing she had laid her eyes on.


When LaQuanta was six months old Pamela noticed a rash on her baby girl and flew into a panic. 
“She had some rash on different areas of her body and it was like death and life to me.  I had no idea what to do so I knew the only person I could take her to was Aunt Katie.”


Aunt Katie, along with other family members, helped raise Pamela since age five, when her mother (Aunt Katie’s sister) was murdered in a domestic violence dispute.  Aunt Katie took care of six-month-old LaQuanta, giving her the medicine she needed.


Pamela went on with her sixteen-year old life, doing the things typical 16-year old girls do, except she had a baby girl who, through the years, would stop at her house and give her special letters.


“She would come to my house and give me her school pictures in an envelope and when I reached in the envelope there would be letters.  That’s how we communicated at that time– through letters – where we would talk about everything  (like) how the Christmas dinner was, and how she was doing good in school.”
LaQuanta soon became the big sister to five other siblings, whom she adored and they adored her, especially her one and only younger sister Kamesha, who in 1992 was sexually assaulted by a 48-year-old-man infected with HIV.  Four years later, in 1996, Kamesha died from AIDs when LaQuanta was only 12 years old.



By age 13, LaQuanta proved to be intelligent, compassionate, a studious student who made the honor roll and was a wiz at biology.


       “During her eighth grade graduation ceremony LaQuanta said she was thankful for the three mothers that she had.  “For my birth mother who I love more than anything and I know she loves me more than anything,’” her Aunt Katie, and cousin Tammy, Aunt Katie’s daughter.”


LaQuanta graduated from Redan High School in Stone Mountain, Georgia in 2002. 
In November of 2003, at age 19, LaQuanta was making plans to move out of her apartment in Eufaula to move in with her Aunt Katie.  By this time LaQuanta had lived in apartments in Atlanta, Montgomery, and Eufaula.  The young lady, perhaps, was still trying to decide where to settle, but there was one thing she was sure of:  she wanted to become a forensic scientist and she was making plans to attend college on a full scholarship to pursue that dream.


At this time, Pamela was no longer the teenage girl, and was in full mother mode, and desired to be the mother to LaQuanta that she was not mature enough to be at age sixteen.


 “There were so many questions I had for LaQuanta – about her friends, her apartments in Atlanta, Eufaula, and in Montgomery, about the people she hanged around with, but I knew our relationship was not the typical mother and daughter relationship and I wanted to give her space.”
In November of 2003, LaQuanta traveled to Eufaula to retrieve some of her belongings.  The same day, LaQuanta, sounding stressed, called her mother asking her to pick her up.  Pamela told her she wasn’t able to pick her up that evening and she would have to wait until the morning, but LaQuanta said she would get someone else to pick her up. 


“I never asked her what happenein Eufaula.  I was trying not to pry and to give her space.  That is y oe regret.”
       Pamela did indeed give her oldest child her space, but always was sure to be there for LaQuanta when she needed her, like the time LaQuanta and her Aunt Katie got into an argument.  LaQuanta immediately called Pamela.


       “Aunt Katie did not want LaQuanta to have male visitors in her apartment, but like the typical 18 year old LaQuanta felt otherwise. I told LaQuanta she needed to do what her Aunt Katie says.  LaQuanta said, “Oh, Mama, that is what you would say.’”
       That was the last conversation Pamela would have with her firstborn, and Pamela has not seen LaQuanta since then, for over 11 years.
LaQuanta was last seen at 11:30 p.m. on Sunday December 7, 2003, leaving her mother’s house in a green four-door car (Ford Taurus or Chevrolet Caprice) with an unidentified male.  LaQuanta’s brother asked her who the driver was and LaQuanta replied, “Just a friend.”


Pamela reported her daughter missing to Montgomery Police 72 hours later.
A few days later, Pamela received a voicemail message of what she believes is LaQuanta’s voice upset and crying with an undecipherable man’s voice in the background.



There have been numerous rumors – LaQuanta rented an apartment tin Stone Mountain, Georgia; LaQuanta was murdered and buried in some secret place; or LaQuanta was killed and her body tossed into Cooter’s Pond in Prattville, Alabama.  


       It’s been 11 long years to think of the “what ifs,” and the possibilities, in what Pamela describes as holes in her life and in her soul, which resulted in a deep, severe, despairing depression.
       “I knew what to do when you were thinking of suicide, I knew what to do when you were depressed, I knew what to do when you were sick, but what do you do when your child is missing?  I buried my youngest daughter, I buried my dad, (and) I buried my grandmother.  I know how it is to loose somebody, but when you have somebody that’s missing that ain’t on the same ball field.  It’s the difference between tennis and football.  It’s not the same thing.  It’s basically one day at a time kind of thing and if you don’t got trust in God I don’t know any human being that could run this race by themselves.”


       Pamela withdrew from the world, from her church, even her own family, going back and forth in her brain of all the regrets she had of giving LaQuanta too much space, and not asking her more questions about what was going on in her life.


       One year later, Pamela released a balloon to let LaQuanta know she is not forgotten.  She somehow knew LaQuanta was looking at those balloons rise to the sky, giving her hope.


She also held a candlelight vigil promising LaQuanta that she would never stop looking until she was found. 


The only problem was Pamela didn’t know what to do, much less find any words in the dictionary to describe the torment that she was going through.  She fell even deeper into a depression that consumed her entire being. 


       But in 2007, four years after LaQuanta disappeared, it all changed, when Kelly Murphy, the mother of missing child Jason Anthony Jolkowski and founder of Project Jason (http://www.projectjason.org), called her. 


“What I was doing was giving up and dying slowly. From grief until I got a call from a Kelly, saying, “Hey my son disappeared”, and this is what I did and this is what I’m doing.”  She said she knew what I was going through.  That phone call from Kelly changed my life and gave me hope and purpose.”


       As a result of that phone call, Pamela started opening herself up to the missing child community, meeting other parents of missing children, including John Walsh, whom she had a deep discussion with about her situation, and his response:  Never give up!   


In 2008, she trained to become an a Team HOPE volunteer (www.missingkids.com/teamhope).  In addition to being an active member of the Team HOPE parent support network, Pam has also become a missing person's advocate. Speaking as a surviving parent, she travels throughout the country advancing her qualifications and sharing her perspective of searching for a missing daughter. 



That one balloon release in 2004 on her front porch with just a few relatives turned into the Prayers By Balloon Release, which takes place every year on National Missing Children’s Day, which was made into law by President Ronald Reagan and first observed on May 25, 1983.


That first candlelight vigil now is a huge event that takes place at designated areas in Montgomery every December; the past two years the candlelight vigil has been held at the Montgomery Capital Rotunda.


The three things that keep Pamela going is the candlelight vigil in December; the Prayers By Balloons Release in May; and the strong belief that LaQuanta is still out there waiting to be found.   


“When those girls (Michelle Berry, Georgina “Gina” DeJesus, and Michelle Knight) from Ohio escaped one of the girls said the only thing that kept her going was hearing on the television when her family would remember her with a balloon release.  Even the law enforcement said, “Okay we are just going to call it closed.  We are going to get the judge to sign that she is no longer with us.”  But the Mom didn’t want to do that and the Mom had the right mind because everybody else was (saying) her daughter was dead, but how could she be dead when she done escape the house she’d been caught up in for eleven years?  But the girl could still hear on the television the different things the family did looking for her.  She said that’s what kept her sane, (and) that’s what kept her holding on.  


You know, every situation is different but who am I to say that my daughter might not be somewhere and she hadn’t given up by seeing us do these candlelight and balloon releases?


The best scenario is what I’ve been hoping and searching for eleven years for God to bring her home and that’s what I’m hoping and praying for and I don’t have any control of what other people think and what they are imagining.   I learned not to go in my head by myself because that’s not a good place to be.  So when people ask me what you think?  I don’t think anything.  I gave it to God and all I’m doing is putting one foot in front of the other and seeing how it all turn out because the energy it takes to think or to believe or to consider that she is no longer with me is way more energy it take to believe that she is alive.  God will bring her home at His appointed time.”


       Pamela set up the Riley Relief Foundation whose main mission is to provide awareness and support for the families and loved ones of the missing and the exploited.


In fact, Pamela believes the person exemplifies the Riley Relief Foundation’s missions stations the most is LaQuanta herself.


       “Look what she’s doing now!  She’s helping millions of people and they don’t know that.  She’s doing what she’s always dream of doing.  What people are doing about her is what she wanted to do now.


She’s still the same bundle of heaven that God gave me 31 years ago.  Nothing’s change that – can’t nothing change that.”
The Prayers By Balloon Release will take place on Sunday, May 24, 2015 at 2:30 p.m. at the Trenholm College Campus located on 1225 Airbase Blvd in Montgomery, Alabama.   


The Neighbors In Christ (http://www.neighborsinchrist.org) will be there to issue identification cards to children.


To donate funds to the Riley Relief Foundation visit any Wells Fargo branch nationwide or mail checks or money orders to Wells Fargo at 800 Madison Avenue in Montgomery, Alabama 36104.


To contact Pamela Riley Boldin visit her Facebook page at https://www.facebook.com/pam.boldin?fref=ts; visit the LaQuanta Riley Missing Facebook Page at


Photograph Description And Copyright Information

Photo 1
Pamela Boldin next to her daughter’s missing poster in front of her house in Montgomery, Alabama.
Attributed to Christal Rice Cooper
Copyright granted by Pamela Boldin and Christal Rice Cooper

Photo 2
Pamela Boldin looking out the front door of her home.
Attributed to Christal Rice Cooper
Copyright granted by Pamela Boldin and Christal Rice Cooper

Photo 3
Pamela cradling roses in her hands in front of her Montgomery Alabama home.
Attributed to Christal Rice Cooper
Copyright granted by Pamela Boldin and Christal Rice Cooper

Photo 4
Newborn baby LaQuanta Nachelle Riley
Fair Use Under the United States Copyright Law

Photo 5 and Photo 6
LaQuanta Nachelle Riley, 8 months old.
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Photo 7
LaQuanta Nachelle Riley with her younger brother.
Copyright granted by Pamela Riley Boldin

Photo 8
Kamesha Riley
Copyright granted by Pamela Riley Boldin

Photo 9
Letter from LaQuanta to her younger sister Kamesha that was printed in the brochure for Kamesha’s funeral.
Copyright granted by Pamela Riley Boldin

Photo 10
LaQuanta Nachelle Riley, age 15
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Photo 11
LaQuanta Nachelle Riley, age 17
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Photo 12
LaQuanta Nachelle Riley, age 18
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Photo 13
LaQuanta Nachelle Riley
Copyright granted by Pamela Riley Boldin

Photo 14
LaQuanta Nachelle Riley hugging her little cousin
Copyright granted by LaQuanta Nachelle Riley

Photo 15
Pencil drawing of LaQuanta Nachelle Riley by her Uncle John Riley
Copyright granted by Pamela Riley Boldin, Christal Rice Cooper, and John Riley.

Photo 17
LaQuanta Nachelle Riley
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Photo 19
LaQuanta Riley missing poster.
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Photo 20
LaQuanta Riley missing poster.
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Photo 21
Pamela Riley Boldin looking toward the heavens.
Copyright granted by Pamela Riley Boldin

Photo 22
Pamela Riley Boldin in the yard of her Montgomery, Alabama home
Attributed to Christal Rice Cooper
Copyright granted by Pamela Riley Boldin and Christal Rice Cooper

Photo 23
One of the many balloon releases for LaQuanta Nachelle Riley
Copyright granted by Pamela Riley Boldin.

Photo 24
The brochure for one of the many candlelight vigils for LaQuanta Nachelle Riley.
Copyright granted by Pamela Riley Boldin

Photo 25
Pamela Riley Boldin looking out the front door of her Montgomery, Alabama home
Attributed to Christal Rice Cooper
Copyright granted by Pamela Riley Boldin’

Photo 26
Web logo for the project Jason web page.
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Photo 27
Project Jason web photo of Kelly Murphy
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Photo 28
Pamela Riley Boldin and John Walsh
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Photo 29
Pamela Riley Bolding is in the right heart, third person from the left, wearing a blue/brown dress with a matching headscarf.
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Photo 30
Web logo for National Missing Children’s Day
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Photo 31.
Image of the candlelight vigil for LaQuanta Nachelle Riley this past December.
Copyright granted by Pamela Riley Boldin

Photo 32
Prayers by Balloons Poster
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Photo 33
Amanda Berry, Georgina “Gina”  DeJesus and Michelle Knight
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Photo 34
Auntie Katie holding a lighted candle at one of LaQuanta Nachelle Riley’s candlelight vigils. 
Copyright granted by Pamela Riley Boldin

Photo 35
Pamela Riley Boldin in her Montgomery, Alabama home
Attributed to Christal Rice Cooper
Copyright granted by Pamela Riley Boldin and Christal Rice Cooper

Photo 37 and 38
The Riley Relief Foundation logos
Copyright granted by Pamela Riley Boldin

Photo 39
Pamela Riley Boldin holding a poster of Alabama’s Missing Children
Copyright granted by Pamela Riley Boldin

Photo 40
Prayers By Balloons poster
Copyright granted by Pamela Riley Boldin

Photo 41
Neighbors In Christ web logo

Photo 42
Pamela Riley Boldin in the yard of her Montgomery, Alabama home
Attributed to Christal Rice Cooper
Copyright granted by Pamela Riley Boldin and Christal Rice Cooper