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Backstory of the
Poem
“The Gift of the
Year With Granny”
by Charles Clifford
Brooks III
What was your grandmother’s full
name? Her birthdate? And the day she died? Hazie Hestine Stager-Justice. She was the only daughter among five
brothers, born on February 2, 1925 and died on December 9, 2013. She was brought up tough, and as much as she
loved to give a hug, she could knock you out with a cast iron skillet for
taking the Lord’s name in vain. God
broke the mold after He blessed this earth with her feisty affection.
Can you go through the step-by-step process of writing this poem
from the moment the idea was first conceived in your brain until final form? This was a hard one.
Granny was one of those most close to me. A cheerleader and like her daughter, took no
shit off me. I wasn’t ready to tackle my
love of her in my first book, I got closer with my second, but I did publish a
piece of it, what I thought was complete through Hobo Camp Review. I knew then that I could be brave enough to
expand into the addiction she helped me hobble out of, the senior year of
college she nurtured me to graduation, and her chicken-and-dumplings were
insane.
You bleed from old scabs over those you want
to be most honest for, not about.
Where were you when you started to actually write the
poem? And please describe the place in great detail. It was at her funeral. I
carry Moleskines around like all poets.
There was and is so much love on mom’s side of the family, on both
sides, but momma’s folks are many, laugh, and hug, hug, hug. The funeral was held by a minister who knew
Granny well, made sure we didn’t cry too much, and told a joke at the end. It’s in the poem. Death is not a door slammed. Mortality does make us acutely aware of what
life we have left, those remaining around us, and doesn’t make us miss those
passed on any less. I took all of that
and jotted notes as my mom sat beside me in church.
Interesting side note that didn’t make it into
the poem: When I was a child (Left), my nanny
told me an old superstition that if you look between your legs while sitting at
a funeral, you could see the future. For
some reason that struck me while hearing about the life my Granny left us all
to love. I tried to look like I was
picking up a pencil “accidentally” dropped, but I am tall. I realized after three attempts at playing it
cool, to find the truth I would have to just dedicate myself and bend over to
peer into the Oracle’s eyes.
I didn’t see anything but feet and the back
wall of the church.
When I sat back up my mom was looking at me with the expression, “What in God’s name was that about?!” I whispered to her the reasoning and she giggled at my childlike curiosity and random mindset to pull up old wives tales at a funeral. Made perfect sense to me, and that beautiful mix of faith, sweet recollections, and poetic catharsis bled out over four or five years of edits, edits, and more edits.
When I sat back up my mom was looking at me with the expression, “What in God’s name was that about?!” I whispered to her the reasoning and she giggled at my childlike curiosity and random mindset to pull up old wives tales at a funeral. Made perfect sense to me, and that beautiful mix of faith, sweet recollections, and poetic catharsis bled out over four or five years of edits, edits, and more edits.
What month and year did you start writing this poem? How many drafts of this poem did you write
before going to the final? (And can you share a photograph of your rough drafts
with pen markings on it?) December 2013. Countless.
I don’t have any handwritten notes or old photos of it to share, but you
can go to the Hobo Camp Review and see the earliest version I thought worthy of
note. Check out the Hobo Camp Review
link at: http://hobocampreview.blogspot.com/2016/04/clifford-brooks.html
What do you want readers of this poem to take from this poem? Family is not about blood.
Relation is happen-
stance. Love is the loyalty that brings folks together, and my Granny was the love that held me together when life fell apart on me. I want people to see the wild-haired Hazie without fake appeal or melodrama. She was a fighter. She wore pretty dresses to church every Sunday. She worried about me and some “good woman” being there to be sure I ate. I want people to remember my Granny was here, lived, made a difference, and was surrounded by happiness in life as in death.
stance. Love is the loyalty that brings folks together, and my Granny was the love that held me together when life fell apart on me. I want people to see the wild-haired Hazie without fake appeal or melodrama. She was a fighter. She wore pretty dresses to church every Sunday. She worried about me and some “good woman” being there to be sure I ate. I want people to remember my Granny was here, lived, made a difference, and was surrounded by happiness in life as in death.
https://www.kudzuleafpress.com/shop/exiles-of-eden (click on link for Exils of Eden)
Which part of the poem was the most emotional of you to write
and why? Any mention of my alcoholism, thoughts of
suicide, and her deep concern for me being left alone bring tears – even
now. It’s just personal stuff. Not regretful sorts of wailing, but more the
days that went by after I moved from her home, on with life, and the time I
couldn’t watch Wheel of Fortune with her every evening. I remember how my mom brought me in at the
end when she remembered few, saw Granny smile real big, and say, “That’s my
Cliff.”
Contact info? I have Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter pages
all with my name in it. If you want me,
it won’t take Scooby-Doo to find me. cliffordbrooks
@southern
collective
experience.com
@southern
collective
experience.com
Anything you would like to add? Please Support my book and the press gracious enough to print “Athena Departs: Gospel of a Man Apart”. You catch glimpses of my Granny in my memories. “Athena Departs” builds up to her story I keep safe to save my sanity: https://www.kudzuleafpress.com/shop/4cbhr4ihrfankaxxujmf4j7x8ak0cs (Click on link for Athena Departs)
The Gift of a Year with Granny
I am less myself without her.
We shared a small house safe
from the insanity I couldn’t shake without
suicide.
She spent twelve months casting
out my father’s curse.
Still, Granny never neglected to kiss me
before I left for class.
Once I decided to ditch class,
and the old broad elbowed me
in the chest.
The only sister in a house full of brothers,
she grew into a grandmother
undefeated by the Great Depression,
welcomed her warrior home from World War II,
and never blinked at the legion of demons in
me.
Obsessed, she hacked off the heads.
of every serpent she saw
swearing it was a copperhead.
Granny said she loved to live alone
with her memories. Not today,
kids off to their own lives
and fields neglected. Back then
I was ushered in as her invalid.
We shared over two hundred sunsets,
and never saw a bad night.
No black dogs hounded me.
She could see that, but struggled.
My tiny titan stood over me during nights
my sleep was more terror than a span of quiet
hours.
That woman wrote my name in all my underwear,
and said that money is fleeting when love
is better spent than saved.
I turned my attention to Shorter University
and set my sight on a diploma.
Doing the hard, last year,
I swore Satan was in the house’s
lack of air conditioning.
Instead of complaining,
I started smoking pot and forgot
why I loved whiskey.
Ten years later,
she tried to tell my momma
in the hospital that a kitchen knife
could cut dementia
away from her dignity. It didn’t,
and six days later Granny
only remembered me.
The reverend who led her funeral
was kind.
Without a word concerning the end times,
my unmoving matriarch began
to push up peaceful daisies.
The holy man that let us out in laughter
said, “The coffin only holds her shell,
because the nut has gone home.”
Still laughing the mourners got going.
I sat on grandfather’s headstone while a
backhoe
filled in the six feet left
between me and Granny.
To stall the ache that agony spills
in the place of the peace I found in Lindale,
I retreat back to relive all evenings we
shared.
My senior year at Shorter University
was shaped by her chicken and dumplings,
Wheel of Fortune, Jeopardy,
and Unsolved Mysteries.
Clifford Brooks was born in Athens, Georgia. His first poetry collection, The Draw of Broken Eyes & Whirling Metaphysics, nominated for the 2013 Georgia Author of the Year Award in Poetry, will be re-issuecd by Kudzu Leaf Press in 2018. His full-length collection Athena Departs: Gospel of a Man Apart as well as his limited-edition poetry chapbook Exiles of Eden were published in 2017,
also by Kudzu Leaf Press. Clifford is the founder of The Southern Collective Experience, a cooperative of writers, musicians and visual artists, which publishes the journal The Blue Mountain Review and hosts the radio show Dante's Old South. He currently lives in northwest Georgia and is pursing an MFA in Creative Writing at Reinhardt University.
001 December 29, 2017
Margo Berdeshevksy’s “12-24”
002 January 08, 2018
Alexis Rhone Fancher’s “82 Miles From
the Beach, We Order The Lobster At Clear Lake Café”
003 January 12, 2018
Barbara Crooker’s “Orange”
004 January 22, 2018
Sonia Saikaley’s “Modern Matsushima”
005 January 29, 2018
Ellen Foos’s “Side Yard”
006 February 03, 2018
Susan Sundwall’s “The Ringmaster”
007 February 09, 2018
Leslea Newman’s “That Night”
008 February 17, 2018
Alexis Rhone Fancher “June Fairchild
Isn’t Dead”
https://chrisricecooper.blogspot.com/2018/02/8-backstory-of-poem-june-fairchild-isnt.html
009 February 24, 2018
Charles
Clifford Brooks III “The Gift of the Year With Granny”
https://chrisricecooper.blogspot.com/2018/02/9-backstory-of-poem-gift-of-year-with.html
010 March 03, 2018
Scott
Thomas Outlar’s “The Natural Reflection of Your Palms”
https://chrisricecooper.blogspot.com/2018/03/chris-ricecooper-caccoopaol.html
011 March 10, 2018
Arya F. Jenkins “After Diane Beatty’s Photograph, “History Abandoned" https://chrisricecooper.blogspot.com/2018/03/11-backstory-of-poem-after-diane.html
Arya F. Jenkins “After Diane Beatty’s Photograph, “History Abandoned" https://chrisricecooper.blogspot.com/2018/03/11-backstory-of-poem-after-diane.html
012 March 17, 2018
Angela Narciso Torres’s “What I Learned This Week”
https://chrisricecooper.blogspot.com/2018/03/12-backstory-of-poem-series-angela.html
https://chrisricecooper.blogspot.com/2018/03/12-backstory-of-poem-series-angela.html
013 March 24, 2018
Jan
Steckel’s “Holiday On ICE”
014 March 31, 2018
Ibrahim
Honjo’s “Colors”
https://chrisricecooper.blogspot.com/2018/03/14-backstory-of-poem-ibrahim-honjos.html
015 April 14, 2018
Marilyn
Kallett’s “Ode to Disappointment”
https://chrisricecooper.blogspot.com/2018/04/15-backstory-of-poem-ode-to.html
015 April 14, 2018
Marilyn
Kallett’s “Ode to Disappointment”
016 April 27, 2018
Beth
Copeland’s “Reliquary”
https://chrisricecooper.blogspot.com/2018/04/16-backstory-of-poem-reliquary-by-beth.html
017 May 12, 2018
Marlon
L Fick’s “The Swallows of Barcelona”
018 May 25, 2018
Juliet
Cook’s “ARTERIAL DISCOMBOBULATION”
https://chrisricecooper.blogspot.com/2018/05/18-backstory-of-poem-arterial.html
019 June 09, 2018
Alexis
Rhone Fancher’s “Stiletto Killer. . . A Surmise”
020 June 16, 2018
Charles
Rammelkamp’s “At Last I Can Start Suffering”
https://chrisricecooper.blogspot.com/2018/06/20-backstory-of-poem-at-least-i-can.html
021 July 05, 2018
Marla
Shaw O’Neill’s “Wind Chimes”
https://chrisricecooper.blogspot.com/2018/07/21-backstory-of-poem-wind-chimes-by.html
022 July 13, 2018
Julia Gordon-Bramer’s
“Studying Ariel”
https://chrisricecooper.blogspot.com/2018/07/22-backstory-of-poem-studying-ariel-by.html
023 July 20, 2018
Bill Yarrow’s “Jesus
Zombie”
https://chrisricecooper.blogspot.com/2018/07/23-backstory-of-poem-jesus-zombie-by.html
024 July 27, 2018
Telaina Eriksen’s “Brag
2016”
https://chrisricecooper.blogspot.com/2018/07/24-backstory-of-poem-brag-2016-by.html
025 August 01, 2018
Seth Berg’s (It is only
Yourself that Bends – so Wake up!”
https://chrisricecooper.blogspot.com/2018/08/25-backstory-of-poem-it-is-only.html
026 August 07, 2018
David Herrle’s “Devil In
the Details”