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“How to tell my dog I’m dying”
by Richard Fox
Can you go
through the step-by-step process of writing this poem from the moment the idea
was first conceived in your brain until final form? In 2016, I was diagnosed with terminal cancer. My
wife, children, family, and friends understand what that means. When I die,
they will know why my physical remains have disappeared.
How do I explain this
to my dog? Does he comprehend how sick I am? Human and dog are bound by
miraculous ties. We share our lives in a unique way.
My approach is to free-write on my computer, then
pick away at it until I’m satisfied to call it a draft. I bring my drafts to my
writing group (been together since 1998) for feedback. Then I work the poem
until I’m ready to “abandon” it. “How to tell my dog I’m dying” followed a different
path. Version #1 was submitted to journals. In the interim, I had a manuscript
consultation for You’re my favorite horse (published by Big Table
Publishing in 2017).
The poem was singled out and we broke it down in great detail. I looked with fresh eyes and the result was the final version.The poem is free verse. I never considered a traditional form.
The poem was singled out and we broke it down in great detail. I looked with fresh eyes and the result was the final version.The poem is free verse. I never considered a traditional form.
Where were you when you started to actually
write the poem? And please describe the place in great detail. I was on a break in treatment between brain
radiation and chemotherapy for my lungs. We went to Sanibel Island and my dog
& I walked the beach daily. Mortality and the scope of pending treatment
occupied my thoughts. My dog has a special expression that he shows only me.
He’s communicating love and happiness. We’d stop and watch the waves, dolphins,
and pelicans. I talked to him and he listened using a paw or a kiss to answer.
I told him I was sick and dying, that I would leave him one day, that there was
no choice. What could he perceive through his senses? What do dogs understand
about the cycle of life?
I sat on the couch with my dog next to me sleeping.
He knows when I’m writing and when I finish a session. The poem came easily. It
was time to get the words on paper where I would learn what I was really
thinking. Once on the page, the distress lost most of its power.
How many drafts of this poem did you write before
going to the final? (And can you share a photograph of your rough drafts with
pen markings on it?) I can’t write with pen
and paper. Disability issue.]
I free-write then pick, pick, pick at the poem.
Imagine I had a working draft, a draft, and then version #1. Later, i ripped
the poem apart, brought it back to my writing group, and ended with the finial
version.
Were there any lines in any of your rough drafts of this poem that were not in the final version? And can you share them with us? I cut many lines that I loved. It hurt but I knew it made the poem stronger. One of the challenges of writing poetry is knowing that only the vital words will remain, that I cannot fall in love with lines. If a word does not do a singular job, it must go. Brevity with clarity is the goal.
The cut lines jump out when comparing the two versions.
What do you want readers of this poem to take from this poem? The poem is direct. With all poems, I want the reader to find find themselves in the space between the words. The images should be revealing for reader and writer.
Were there any lines in any of your rough drafts of this poem that were not in the final version? And can you share them with us? I cut many lines that I loved. It hurt but I knew it made the poem stronger. One of the challenges of writing poetry is knowing that only the vital words will remain, that I cannot fall in love with lines. If a word does not do a singular job, it must go. Brevity with clarity is the goal.
The cut lines jump out when comparing the two versions.
What do you want readers of this poem to take from this poem? The poem is direct. With all poems, I want the reader to find find themselves in the space between the words. The images should be revealing for reader and writer.
Which part of the poem was the most emotional of
you to write and why? The
last verse. It’s fear without answer.
Has this poem been published before? And if so
where? Soul-Lit http://soul-lit.com/poems/V15/
9.
Anything you would like to add? Thank you for this opportunity, Car.
how to tell
my dog I'm dying
Bailey
smells blood, discharge from my incisions. He crawls on his belly, ears pulled
back
when I groan, pillow to side, after a cough.
Bailey curls
his back to my waist, sniffs and stares in my face, watches me spit into a
bowl.
I need the
toilet. He leaps off the bed,
trails me to the bathroom. I think back to his
puppy days, following him until he peed.
When I die,
I want him to watch over me, to know that my body became a corpse, to know I
didn't just leave him.
Richard H. Fox dreams
three-decker rainbows encircle The Woo. When not writing about rock ’n roll or
youthful transgressions, his poems focus on cancer drawing on hope, humor, and
unforeseen gifts. He is the author of three poetry collections: Time Bomb (2013), wandering in puzzle boxes (2015),
You’re my favorite horse (2017)
and a chapbook: The Complete Uncle
Louie Poems (2017). The winner of the 2017 Frank O’Hara Prize,
he seconds Stanley Kunitz' motion that people in Worcester are "provoked
to poetry.”
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BACKSTORY OF THE POEM
LINKS
001 December 29, 2017
Margo
Berdeshevksy’s “12-24”
002 January 08, 2018
Alexis
Rhone Fancher’s “82 Miles From the Beach, We Order The Lobster At Clear Lake
Café”
003 January 12, 2018
Barbara
Crooker’s “Orange”
004 January 22, 2018
Sonia
Saikaley’s “Modern Matsushima”
005 January 29, 2018
Ellen
Foos’s “Side Yard”
006 February 03, 2018
Susan
Sundwall’s “The Ringmaster”
007 February 09, 2018
Leslea
Newman’s “That Night”
008 February 17, 2018
Alexis
Rhone Fancher “June Fairchild Isn’t Dead”
009 February 24, 2018
Charles
Clifford Brooks III “The Gift of the Year With Granny”
010 March 03, 2018
Scott
Thomas Outlar’s “The Natural Reflection of Your Palms”
011 March 10, 2018
Anya
Francesca Jenkins’s “After Diane Beatty’s Photograph “History Abandoned”
012 March 17, 2018
Angela
Narciso Torres’s “What I Learned This Week”
013 March 24, 2018
Jan
Steckel’s “Holiday On ICE”
014 March 31, 2018
Ibrahim
Honjo’s “Colors”
015 April 14, 2018
Marilyn
Kallett’s “Ode to Disappointment”
016 April 27, 2018
Beth
Copeland’s “Reliquary”
017 May 12, 2018
Marlon
L Fick’s “The Swallows of Barcelona”
018 May 25, 2018
Juliet
Cook’s “ARTERIAL DISCOMBOBULATION”
019 June 09, 2018
Alexis
Rhone Fancher’s “Stiletto Killer. . . A Surmise”
020 June 16, 2018
Charles
Rammelkamp’s “At Last I Can Start Suffering”
021 July 05, 2018
Marla
Shaw O’Neill’s “Wind Chimes”
022 July 13, 2018
Julia Gordon-Bramer’s
“Studying Ariel”
023 July 20, 2018
Bill Yarrow’s “Jesus
Zombie”
024 July 27, 2018
Telaina Eriksen’s “Brag
2016”
025 August 01, 2018
Seth Berg’s “It is only
Yourself that Bends – so Wake up!”
026 August 07, 2018
David Herrle’s “Devil In
the Details”
027 August 13, 2018
Gloria Mindock’s “Carmen
Polo, Lady Necklaces, 2017”
028 August 21, 2018
Connie Post’s “Two
Deaths”
029 August 30, 2018
Mary Harwell Sayler’s
“Faces in a Crowd”
030 September 16, 2018
Larry Jaffe’s “The
Risking Point”
031 September 24,
2018
Mark Lee Webb’s “After
We Drove”
032 October 04, 2018
Melissa Studdard’s
“Astral”
033 October 13, 2018
Robert Craven’s “I Have
A Bass Guitar Called Vanessa”
034 October 17, 2018
David Sullivan’s “Paper Mache
Peaches of Heaven”
035 October 23, 2018
Timothy Gager’s
“Sobriety”
036 October 30, 2018
Gary Glauber’s “The
Second Breakfast”
037 November 04, 2018
Heather Forbes-McKeon’s
“Melania’s Deaf Tone Jacket”
038 November 11, 2018
Andrena Zawinski’s
“Women of the Fields”
039 November 00, 2018
Gordon Hilger’s “Poe”
040 November 16, 2018
Rita Quillen’s “My
Children Question Me About Poetry” and “Deathbed Dreams”
041 November 20, 2018
Jonathan Kevin Rice’s
“Dog Sitting”
042 November 22, 2018
Haroldo Barbosa Filho’s
“Mountain”
043 November 27, 2018
Megan Merchant’s “Grief Flowers”
044 November 30, 2018
Jonathan P Taylor’s
“This poem is too neat”
045 December 03, 2018
Ian Haight’s “Sungmyo
for our Dead Father-in-Law”
046 December 06, 2018
Nancy Dafoe’s “Poem in
the Throat”
047 December 11, 2018
Jeffrey Pearson’s “Memorial
Day”
048 December 14, 2018
Frank Paino’s “Laika”
049 December 15, 2018
Jennifer Martelli’s
“Anniversary”
O50 December 19, 2018
Joseph Ross’s “For Gilberto Ramos, 15, Who Died in
the Texas Desert, June 2014”
051 December 23, 2018
“The Persistence of
Music”
by Anatoly Molotkov
052 December 27, 2018
“Under Surveillance”
by Michael Farry
053 December 28, 2018
“Grand Finale”
by Renuka Raghavan
054 December 29, 2018
“Aftermath”
by Gene Barry
055 January 2, 2019
“&”
by Larissa Shmailo
056 January 7, 2019
“The Seamstress:
by Len Kuntz
057 January 10, 2019
"Natural History"
by Camille T Dungy
058 January 11, 2019
“BLOCKADE”
by Brian Burmeister
059 January 12, 2019
“Lost”
by Clint Margrave
060 January 14, 2019
“Menopause”
by Pat Durmon
061 January 19, 2019
“Neptune’s Choir”
by Linda Imbler
062 January 22, 2019
“Views From the
Driveway”
by Amy Barone
063 January 25, 2019
“The heron leaves her
haunts in the marsh”
by Gail Wronsky
064 January 30, 2019
“Shiprock”
by Terry Lucas
065 February 02, 2019
“Summer 1970, The
University of Virginia Opens to Women in the Fall”
by Alarie Tennille
066 February 05, 2019
“At School They Learn
Nouns”
by Patrick Bizzaro
067 February 06, 2019
“I Must Not Breathe”
by Angela Jackson-Brown
068 February 11, 2019
“Lunch on City Island,
Early June”
by Christine Potter
069 February 12, 2019
“Singing”
by Andrew McFadyen-Ketchum
070 February 14, 2019
“Daily Commute”
by Christopher P. Locke
071 February 18, 2019
“How Silent The Trees”
by Wyn Cooper
072 February 20, 2019
“A New Psalm
of Montreal”
by Sheenagh Pugh
073 February 23, 2019
“Make Me A
Butterfly”
by Amy Barbera
074 February 26, 2019
“Anthem”
by Sandy Coomer
075 March 4, 2019
“Shape of a Violin”
by Kelly Powell
076 March 5, 2019
“Inward Oracle”
by J.P. Dancing Bear
077 March 7, 2019
“I Broke
My Bust Of Jesus”
by Susan Sundwall
078 March 9, 2019
“My Mother
at 19”
by John Guzlowski
079 March 10, 2019
“Paddling”
by Chera Hammons Miller
080 March 12, 2019
“Of Water
and Echo”
by Gillian Cummings
081 082
083 March 14, 2019
“Little
Political Sense” “Crossing Kansas with
Jim
Morrison” “The Land of Sky and Blue Waters”
by Dr. Lindsey
Martin-Bowen
084 March 15, 2019
“A Tune To
Remember”
by Anna Evans
085 March 19, 2019
“At the
End of Time (Wish You Were Here)
by Jeannine Hall Gailey
086 March 20, 2019
“Garden of
Gethsemane”
by Marletta Hemphill
087 March 21, 2019
“Letters
From a War”
by Chelsea Dingman
088 March 26, 2019
“HAT”
by Bob Heman
089 March 27, 2019
“Clay for
the Potter”
by Belinda Bourgeois
#090 March 30, 2019
“The Pose”
by John Hicks
#091 April 2, 2019
“Last
Night at the Wursthaus”
by Doug Holder
#092 April 4, 2019
“Original
Sin”
by Diane Lockward
#093 April 5, 2019
“A Father
Calls to his child on liveleak”
by Stephen Byrne
#094 April 8, 2019
“XX”
by Marc Zegans
#095 April 12, 2019
“Landscape
and Still Life”
by Marjorie Maddox
#096 April 16, 2019
“Strawberries
Have Been Growing Here for Hundreds of
Years”
by Mary Ellen Lough
#097 April 17, 2019
“The New
Science of Slippery Surfaces”
by Donna Spruijt-Metz
#098 April 19, 2019
“Tennessee
Epithalamium”
by Alyse Knorr
#099 April 20, 2019
“Mermaid,
1969”
by Tameca L. Coleman
#100 April 21, 2019
“How Do
You Know?”
by Stephanie
#101 April 23, 2019
“Rare Book
and Reader”
by Ned Balbo
#102 April 26, 2019
“THUNDER”
by Jefferson Carter
#103 May 01, 2019
“The sight
of a million angels”
by Jenneth Graser
#104 May 09, 2019
“How to
tell my dog I’m dying”
by Richard Fox