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by Melissa Fite Johnson
Can you go through the
step-by-step process of writing this poem from the moment the idea was first
conceived in your brain until final form?
My husband (Marc) and I don’t have children. (Above Right) We have dogs, which is not the same as having children. I don’t call them “fur-babies.” I feel defined in some ways by our decision not to have children, and my chapbook (A Crooked Door Cut into the Sky, a Vella Chapbook winner through Paper Nautilus Press) is largely about that.
My husband (Marc) and I don’t have children. (Above Right) We have dogs, which is not the same as having children. I don’t call them “fur-babies.” I feel defined in some ways by our decision not to have children, and my chapbook (A Crooked Door Cut into the Sky, a Vella Chapbook winner through Paper Nautilus Press) is largely about that.
Where were you when you
started to actually write the poem? And
please describe the place in great detail. Marc and I have since moved
to a different house in a different town, but I wrote the poem in our home, the
one we shared with Knuckles. The
smallest room in our house was my writing space—second floor, with a vaulted
ceiling.
What month and year did
you start writing this poem? I keep all versions of all poems,
so I know I wrote the first version of this poem in March 2016 (Right). I spent a year revising it.
How many drafts of this
poem did you write before going to the final? (And can you share a photograph
of your rough drafts with pen markings on it?) Seven. (And
I’ll look through my journals later and try to find one. It might take a bit!)
Were there any lines in any of your rough drafts of this poem that were not in the final version? And can you share them with us? The poem originally had a whole first half. It was much more narrative, which is more my usual style. I described our whole night—car ride, ice cream treat, letting our dog sniff for an extra long time before we headed inside:
He
sniffed, or tried,
grass, the base of a tree, our shoes.
Marc and I cried. Cars drove by,
headlights shined on our wet cheeks.
grass, the base of a tree, our shoes.
Marc and I cried. Cars drove by,
headlights shined on our wet cheeks.
Ultimately, I had too many
details. They were honest and
well-intentioned, but they took away from the tone. They were a little twee. When I pared the poem down to just the last
thing my husband and I did with Knuckles the night before he died—read poems
aloud to each other as we held him in our lap—that’s when the poem finally felt
right to me. (Right: Melissa in December of 2019)
What do you want readers
of this poem to take from this poem? I teach Creative Writing to high
school students, and I always have them read Bruce Weigl’s “May,” (https://www.poem
hunter.com/poem/may-58/) a poem about having to put down a dog. (Above Left: Melissa teaching in her classroom)
So many
students are angry with me for making them read it, and I always explain to
them that I’m not trying to be a jerk.
I’m trying to get them to understand that poetry at its best is
specific, honest, real. It’s a whole relationship whittled down to a
moment. That poem makes them get it more
than anything else we read because pets are maybe the purest form of love any
of us ever gets to experience. I hope my
poem makes people feel, the way Weigl makes my students and me feel.
hunter.com/poem/may-58/) a poem about having to put down a dog. (Above Left: Melissa teaching in her classroom)
Which part of the poem
was the most emotional of you to write and why? The ending. God, we put off going to sleep as long as we
could. We could not fathom our lives
without him, and we knew our lives without him would begin the next
morning. It sounds dramatic, but I told
Marc that with the exception of my father’s death when I was sixteen, our dog’s
death was the hardest one I’d ever experienced.
Harder than grandparents, even.
That might sound terrible, but my father and Knuckles both lived with me
when they died. Their deaths changed the
fabric of my everyday life. I was
reminded of their losses every time I walked into a room. (Above Left: Melissa as a toddler with her father)
Has this poem been published before? And if so where? It’s one of the few poems in my chapbook A Crooked Door Cut into the Sky that wasn’t published in a journal. So it’s nice that it’s being featured here!
Has this poem been published before? And if so where? It’s one of the few poems in my chapbook A Crooked Door Cut into the Sky that wasn’t published in a journal. So it’s nice that it’s being featured here!
Anything you would like
to add? First, I’m honored you’re including me on your blog—thank you so
much. Also, my husband and I thought we
might never get another dog, but somehow now we have three. We miss Knuckles, but life is for the living,
you know? Dogs fill us with joy, and
when we were ready, we got one (and then another and then another and I think
we’re done).
The
Night Before Our Dog’s Death
my
husband found a poem
about
a dog slogging through
a
snowy street behind his owner,
read
it aloud, slid me the book.
I
found a poem comparing
each
of our remaining days
to
a wooden block the child stacks.
He
found a child reaching
for
the wrong grown-up’s hand.
I
found an ambulance wailing
into
the drive. He found a river.
I
found a tricycle overturned
in
the yard. He found a poem
about
a dog sleeping in tree shadow.
I
found his hand, our dog’s fur,
my
hollow voice in the near dark.
Melissa
Fite Johnson’s first collection, While
the Kettle’s On (Little Balkans Press, 2015), won the Nelson Poetry Book
Award and is a Kansas Notable Book. She is also the author of A Crooked Door Cut into the Sky, winner
of the 2017 Vella Chapbook Award (Paper Nautilus Press, 2018). Her poems have
appeared or are forthcoming in Pleiades,
Valparaiso Poetry Review, Sidereal, Whale Road Review, Broadsided Press,
and elsewhere. Melissa teaches high school English in Lawrence, KS, where she
and her husband live with their three dogs. For more, visit
melissafitejohnson.com
melissafitejohnson.com
Contact info?
BACKSTORY OF THE POEM
LINKS
001 December 29, 2017
Margo
Berdeshevksy’s “12-24”
002 January 08, 2018
Alexis
Rhone Fancher’s “82 Miles From the Beach, We Order The Lobster At Clear Lake
Café”
003 January 12, 2018
Barbara
Crooker’s “Orange”
004 January 22, 2018
Sonia
Saikaley’s “Modern Matsushima”
005 January 29, 2018
Ellen
Foos’s “Side Yard”
006 February 03, 2018
Susan
Sundwall’s “The Ringmaster”
007 February 09, 2018
Leslea
Newman’s “That Night”
008 February 17, 2018
Alexis
Rhone Fancher “June Fairchild Isn’t Dead”
009 February 24, 2018
Charles
Clifford Brooks III “The Gift of the Year With Granny”
010 March 03, 2018
Scott
Thomas Outlar’s “The Natural Reflection of Your Palms”
011 March 10, 2018
Anya
Francesca Jenkins’s “After Diane Beatty’s Photograph “History Abandoned”
012 March 17, 2018
Angela
Narciso Torres’s “What I Learned This Week”
013 March 24, 2018
Jan
Steckel’s “Holiday On ICE”
014 March 31, 2018
Ibrahim
Honjo’s “Colors”
015 April 14, 2018
Marilyn
Kallett’s “Ode to Disappointment”
016 April 27, 2018
Beth
Copeland’s “Reliquary”
017 May 12, 2018
Marlon
L Fick’s “The Swallows of Barcelona”
018 May 25, 2018
Juliet
Cook’s “ARTERIAL DISCOMBOBULATION”
019 June 09, 2018
Alexis
Rhone Fancher’s “Stiletto Killer. . . A Surmise”
020 June 16, 2018
Charles
Rammelkamp’s “At Last I Can Start Suffering”
021 July 05, 2018
Marla
Shaw O’Neill’s “Wind Chimes”
022 July 13, 2018
Julia Gordon-Bramer’s
“Studying Ariel”
023 July 20, 2018
Bill Yarrow’s “Jesus
Zombie”
024 July 27, 2018
Telaina Eriksen’s “Brag
2016”
025 August 01, 2018
Seth Berg’s “It is only
Yourself that Bends – so Wake up!”
026 August 07, 2018
David Herrle’s “Devil In
the Details”
027 August 13, 2018
Gloria Mindock’s “Carmen
Polo, Lady Necklaces, 2017”
028 August 21, 2018
Connie Post’s “Two
Deaths”
029 August 30, 2018
Mary Harwell Sayler’s
“Faces in a Crowd”
030 September 16, 2018
Larry Jaffe’s “The
Risking Point”
031 September 24,
2018
Mark Lee Webb’s “After
We Drove”
032 October 04, 2018
Melissa Studdard’s
“Astral”
033 October 13, 2018
Robert Craven’s “I Have
A Bass Guitar Called Vanessa”
034 October 17, 2018
David Sullivan’s “Paper Mache
Peaches of Heaven”
035 October 23, 2018
Timothy Gager’s
“Sobriety”
036 October 30, 2018
Gary Glauber’s “The
Second Breakfast”
037 November 04, 2018
Heather Forbes-McKeon’s
“Melania’s Deaf Tone Jacket”
038 November 11, 2018
Andrena Zawinski’s
“Women of the Fields”
039 November 00, 2018
Gordon Hilger’s “Poe”
040 November 16, 2018
Rita Quillen’s “My
Children Question Me About Poetry” and “Deathbed Dreams”
041 November 20, 2018
Jonathan Kevin Rice’s
“Dog Sitting”
042 November 22, 2018
Haroldo Barbosa Filho’s
“Mountain”
043 November 27, 2018
Megan Merchant’s “Grief Flowers”
044 November 30, 2018
Jonathan P Taylor’s
“This poem is too neat”
045 December 03, 2018
Ian Haight’s “Sungmyo
for our Dead Father-in-Law”
046 December 06, 2018
Nancy Dafoe’s “Poem in
the Throat”
047 December 11, 2018
Jeffrey Pearson’s “Memorial
Day”
048 December 14, 2018
Frank Paino’s “Laika”
049 December 15, 2018
Jennifer Martelli’s
“Anniversary”
O50 December 19, 2018
Joseph Ross’s “For Gilberto Ramos, 15, Who Died in
the Texas Desert, June 2014”
051 December 23, 2018
“The Persistence of
Music”
by Anatoly Molotkov
052 December 27, 2018
“Under Surveillance”
by Michael Farry
053 December 28, 2018
“Grand Finale”
by Renuka Raghavan
054 December 29, 2018
“Aftermath”
by Gene Barry
055 January 2, 2019
“&”
by Larissa Shmailo
056 January 7, 2019
“The Seamstress:
by Len Kuntz
057 January 10, 2019
"Natural History"
by Camille T Dungy
058 January 11, 2019
“BLOCKADE”
by Brian Burmeister
059 January 12, 2019
“Lost”
by Clint Margrave
060 January 14, 2019
“Menopause”
by Pat Durmon
061 January 19, 2019
“Neptune’s Choir”
by Linda Imbler
062 January 22, 2019
“Views From the
Driveway”
by Amy Barone
063 January 25, 2019
“The heron leaves her
haunts in the marsh”
by Gail Wronsky
064 January 30, 2019
“Shiprock”
by Terry Lucas
065 February 02, 2019
“Summer 1970, The
University of Virginia Opens to Women in the Fall”
by Alarie Tennille
066 February 05, 2019
“At School They Learn
Nouns”
by Patrick Bizzaro
067 February 06, 2019
“I Must Not Breathe”
by Angela Jackson-Brown
068 February 11, 2019
“Lunch on City Island,
Early June”
by Christine Potter
069 February 12, 2019
“Singing”
by Andrew McFadyen-Ketchum
070 February 14, 2019
“Daily Commute”
by Christopher P. Locke
071 February 18, 2019
“How Silent The Trees”
by Wyn Cooper
072 February 20, 2019
“A New Psalm
of Montreal”
by Sheenagh Pugh
073 February 23, 2019
“Make Me A
Butterfly”
by Amy Barbera
074 February 26, 2019
“Anthem”
by Sandy Coomer
075 March 4, 2019
“Shape of a Violin”
by Kelly Powell
076 March 5, 2019
“Inward Oracle”
by J.P. Dancing Bear
077 March 7, 2019
“I Broke
My Bust Of Jesus”
by Susan Sundwall
078 March 9, 2019
“My Mother
at 19”
by John Guzlowski
079 March 10, 2019
“Paddling”
by Chera Hammons Miller
080 March 12, 2019
“Of Water
and Echo”
by Gillian Cummings
081 082
083 March 14, 2019
“Little
Political Sense” “Crossing Kansas with
Jim
Morrison” “The Land of Sky and Blue Waters”
by Dr. Lindsey
Martin-Bowen
084 March 15, 2019
“A Tune To
Remember”
by Anna Evans
085 March 19, 2019
“At the
End of Time (Wish You Were Here)
by Jeannine Hall Gailey
086 March 20, 2019
“Garden of
Gethsemane”
by Marletta Hemphill
087 March 21, 2019
“Letters
From a War”
by Chelsea Dingman
088 March 26, 2019
“HAT”
by Bob Heman
089 March 27, 2019
“Clay for
the Potter”
by Belinda Bourgeois
#090 March 30, 2019
“The Pose”
by John Hicks
#091 April 2, 2019
“Last
Night at the Wursthaus”
by Doug Holder
#092 April 4, 2019
“Original
Sin”
by Diane Lockward
#093 April 5, 2019
“A Father
Calls to his child on liveleak”
by Stephen Byrne
#094 April 8, 2019
“XX”
by Marc Zegans
#095 April 12, 2019
“Landscape
and Still Life”
by Marjorie Maddox
#096 April 16, 2019
“Strawberries
Have Been Growing Here for Hundreds of
Years”
by Mary Ellen Lough
#097 April 17, 2019
“The New
Science of Slippery Surfaces”
by Donna Spruijt-Metz
#098 April 19, 2019
“Tennessee
Epithalamium”
by Alyse Knorr
#099 April 20, 2019
“Mermaid,
1969”
by Tameca L. Coleman
#100 April 21, 2019
“How Do
You Know?”
by Stephanie
#101 April 23, 2019
“Rare Book
and Reader”
by Ned Balbo
#102 April 26, 2019
“THUNDER”
by Jefferson Carter
#103 May 01, 2019
“The sight
of a million angels”
by Jenneth Graser
#104 May 09, 2019
“How to
tell my dog I’m dying”
by Richard Fox
#105 May 17, 2019
“Promises
Had Been Made”
by Sarah Sarai
#106 June 01, 2019
“i sold
your car today”
by Pamela Twining
#107 June 02, 2019
“Abandoned
Stable”
by Nancy Susanna Breen
#108 June 05, 2019
“Cupcake”
by Julene Tripp Weaver
#109 June 6, 2019
“Bobby’s
Story”
by Jimmy Pappas
#110 June 10, 2019
“When You
Ask Me to Tell You About My Father”
by Pauletta Hansel
#111 Backstory of the
Poem’s
“Cemetery
Mailbox”
by Jennifer Horne
#112 Backstory of the Poem’s
“Relics”
by Kate Peper
#113 Backstory of the
Poem’s
“Q”
by Jennifer Johnson
#114 Backstory of the
Poem’s
“Brushing My Hair”
by Tammika Dorsey Jones
#115 Backstory of the
Poem
“Because the Birds Will
Survive, Too”
by Katherine Riegel
#116 Backstory of the Poem
“DIVORCE”
“DIVORCE”
by Joan Barasovska
#117 Backstory of the
Poem
“NEW
YEAR”S EVE 2016”
by Michael Meyerhofer
#118 Backstory of the
Poem
“Dear the
estranged,”
by Gina Tron
#119 Backstory of the Poem
“In
Remembrance of Them”
by Janet Renee Cryer
#120 Backstory of the
Poem
“Horse Fly
Grade Card, Doesn’t Play Well With Others”
by David L. Harrison
#121 Backstory of the
Poem
“My
Mother’s Cookbook”
by Rachael Ikins
#122 Backstory of the
Poem
“Cousins I
Never Met”
by Maureen Kadish
Sherbondy
#123 Backstory of the
Poem
“To Those
Who Were Our First Gods”
by Nickole Brown
#124 Backstory of the
Poem
“Looking For Sunsets (In the Early Morning)”
“Looking For Sunsets (In the Early Morning)”
by Paul Levinson
#125 Backstory of the
Poem
“Tracy”
by Tiff Holland
#126 Backstory of the
Poem
“Legs”
by Cindy Hochman
“Legs”
by Cindy Hochman
#127 Backstory of the
Poem
“Anathema”
“Anathema”
by Natasha Saje
#128 Backstory of the
Poem
“How to
Explain Fertility When an Acquaintance Asks Casually”
by Allison Blevins
#129 Backstory of the
Poem
“The Art of Meditation
In Tennessee”
by Linda Parsons
#130 Backstory of the
Poem
“Schooling
High, In Beslan”
by Satabdi Saha
#131 Backstory of the
Poem
““Baby Jacob survives the Oso Landslide, 2014”
by Amie Zimmerman
#132 Backstory of the
Poem
“Our Age
of Anxiety”
by Henry Israeli
#133 Backstory of the
Poem
“Earth
Cries; Heaven Smiles”
by Ken Allan Dronsfield
#134 Backstory of the Poem
“Eons”
by Janine Canan
#135 Backstory of the
Poem
“Sworn”
by Catherine Zickgraf
#136 Backstory of the
Poem
“Bushwick
Blue”
by Susana H. Case
#137 Backstory of the
Poem
“Then She
Was Forever”
by Paula Persoleo
#138 Backstory of the
Poem
“Enough”
by Kris Bigalk
#139 Backstory of the
Poem
“From Ghosts of the
Upper Floor”
by Tony Trigilio
#140 Backstory of the
Poem
“Cloud
Audience”
by Wanita Zumbrunnen
#141 Backstory of the
Poem
“Condition
Center”
by Matthew Freeman
#142 Backstory of the
Poem
“Adventuresome
Woman”
by Cheryl Suchors
#143 Backstory of the
Poem
“The Way Back”
“The Way Back”
by Robert Walicki
#144 Backstory of the
Poem
“If I Had Three Lives”
by Sarah Russell
#145 Backstory of the
Poem
“Reservoir”
by Andrea Rexilius
#146 Backstory of the
Poem
“The Night
Before Our Dog Died”
by Melissa Fite Johnson